I Tore You Up and Threw You Away

Write it down,
Pray about it,
Give it to Him,
Rip it up
Bin it
Receive His peaceSo I did

I wrote you down
All five of your pestering members
I formed your being on the paper with my pen
I wrote you into existence
Removed you from the refuge you had taken in my heart and mind
Deposited you on the paper in front of me
Careful to hide you from inquisitive eyes
Careful to protect those I love from your longing glancesYou continue to call to me like the woman in Proverbs

Tempting me with talk of spiced sheets and intoxicating loveBut through squinted eyes

Squinted to block out the glare of your appeal
I put you down on that paper
I tore you up
Dismembered
Bit by bit
Tiny as I could afford to goStill you tried to cry out

To escape your impending doom
Your dark grave beckoned
I prayed as I ripped
Tore
Demolished
I threw you away
Physically
Symbolically
I am released
I receive His peace
Goodbye
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